I’m depressed. Tryouts are on Wednesday and I hurt my ankle this morning tumbling. Ice isn’t even helping. I’m at home and I can’t walk…why me?! *cries*

I didn’t think I would say this but I’m tired of being single. I want a boo. No, scratch that, a boyfriend. No playing mental or emotional games. Serious but not to the extreme (considering I’m still just a teenager lol). Someone I can joke around with one minute and have serious conversation with the next. Athlete. Smart. Nice smile. Funny. Tall. Idk, there’s a lot on my list. Haha I sound extra picky but oh well. I just want someone who will put in just as much effort as I do. But I’m not in a rush if there’s no one for me right now. I’m chillin so I guess I’ll wait lol. Just letting my frustration be known. WOMP #thestruggle lmaoo :D

Wow. I hate seeing something that instantly pisses me off. I swear I can’t have ANY close guy friends without people assuming stuff. Stay out of my business, thanks. Ughh

It takes a lot for me to actually hate someone. I can say I hate you and not mean it and joke around, but for the first time I actually mean it. I hate you. For constantly making me feel like shit and believing the sweet talk and kisses on my forehead just to turn around to your other girl. I swear, I’m too nice of a person. You make a mistake and have an apology that seems so sincere and I automatically forgive you, but after awhile, I can’t even take the bullshit. I don’t think anyone has ever made me so mad before. I’m young, I shouldn’t be this worried about guys or a relationship. I actually almost shed a few tears about all this just now but then I remembered that either way, with or without you, I know who’s really here for me. I have so much to say but can’t even put them to words. I just hate this. I’m so done with being nice to people who hurt me. Sorry I’m not sorry. You went too far this time.

Yepp, that’s me right now…

I’m in my feelings man. I don’t care, I’m going to say it. I’m tired of all the games being played. I’m tired of waiting all of the time. You’ve got my attention, so now what?!? I can only wait for so long…I’m really hoping this ends in my favor, but…yeah. hmph.

the end.

Today my dad told me something he was going to do for me, I have to keep it a secret for now, but I’m so excited I can’t even take it. I hate when you know something and want to tell it to EVERYONE, but can’t. It sucks, but I’m really happy so I don’t care and I can’t wait for November to come. Yay! lol

How rude can you be. Don’t start a conversation with me talking about how “fat” my ass is -__- like excuse me, do you think that makes you cute? because it doesn’t. I barely know you, and talking about my “sexy body” isn’t making me want to get to know you. And I know you said the same crap to one of my best friends smh. Are you stupid? You’re a fucking asshole. Please do me a favor and take a long walk off a short bridge. I’m irritated now. Being disrespectful will get you NO girls. I hope you stay lonely forever.

So I’m watching the Heat game (as always) and damn, I freaking LOVE Dwayne Wade…he’s always been the best ever but sheesh!!…just putting that out there. Lol :)

Ok, so if you like me and I like you, then so be it. But if you stop liking me and want someone else….tell me, duhh! Don’t be an asshole. But you know….whatever…..

It’s weird…knowing you like someone but trying to distance yourself. How do I know if you’re perfect of just like the rest. Not knowing how to just forget it all sucks. I’m not getting hurt again…I refuse.

What happens when two really good friends start becoming more than that?…yeah that’s what I thought…it all goes downhill. Awkward.

*ughh* I’m completely over this whole situation but I don’t understand why I makes me mad to see you hurt someone the way you hurt me. She looks so happy and she’s not a bad person but you’re still going to play those games you always do. I kinda want to tell her and just let her know everything but what’s the point? Someone tried to tell me then too but when it all seemed so good, I didn’t want to listen. Why even bother because eventually she will learn just like I did. It’s like everytime a girl loses your little “game” you find someone else to play. It’s irritating. But whatever,You do you booboo. LOL. I laugh at how slick you think you are. Waiting for the day when your ass just gets so caught. Mwuahh